First post iv made in a while. Not had much to say really. Nats ain't answered my calls lately, but she eventually answered today going shopping on Tues YAY. Cinema Next week wiv Holly and hopefully Nats. Hopefully xmas will be great. done everyones cards now, as well as Nats and her families and Lukes. Dunno what to get for nats for xmas probs get her shop gift cards. haha me and Sam each other the same prezzie lol but O well shes still gettin it. Last day of school tomoz Oh YER cant wait.

P.S God Bless u Luke soo kind

Well what can i say things are going good. Me and S are bezzies again so thats ok apart from M.E wont be nice to me, Me and S are writing a book :) but this is addin to the tv episode and band were ment to be doing lol. Hs bday tomoz which should be good apart from her other friends dont like me and treat me like a outsider but i hope they'll be nice tomorrow for h's sake. Cnt wait. I HATE HOMEWORK so much to do for monday. Went to liverpool today it was good untill wen we had all decided to come home G passed a shop he wanted to go into but me and L really wanted to go home so we sed no were goin to the train station now so he goes of in this big huff ands all moody in the car and when we get home. Things were goin so great till then but he has to ruin it!

I was havin such a good day today untill who other then my bestfriend ruined it! I finally fought things were better. But then my bestfriend Cba even to email me insisted we coz on bin weevils just for her to neva turn up on it in the end! Why cant people let me be happy for once what do they want me to do, get on my knees and beg??? no, all i want is one best friend and what do i get Load of SHIT instead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Perfect ending to a alomost perfect day!!!! HAHAHA a pic of my ex tryin to look cool but it didnt work and he looks like hes playin fancydress HAHAHAHAHA ITs soooo funny tryin not to die!!!!

I'm Sitting here thinking I'll go to bed once Ive finished my post.So whats been going on lately.. Well not alot, amazing Sam and me can have a reasonable conversation now by email (sometimes) witch i was not expecting to happen. School has been rubbish! And OMG Lia just annoys me in every possible way possible and most the time she does it on purpose God it annoys me, hey I'll just remind her of that time i got the better of her and if she don't shut up then I'll go to miss L and exaggerate abit it sounds tight but I'm getting to the end of my tether wiv it! So today's not been that bad, had too netball matches this morning played GK for both. We ended up playing the same team twice tho they broke the rules so hopefully they will have that match forfeited. because there is a rule saying that one team of the same players can only play under 1 name. They played under to names for 4 matches and that's not allowed! Natalie ended up having a yelling match with the ref which got her 1) in trouble and 2) very upset wen the ref told her of for it, but hey she was tired and was getting annoyed coz she was getting penalties against her. Our team is too proud some of them were really shattered but they were too proud to tell anyone and ended up making really stupid mistakes!
So after netball i went to Holly's house, I had loads of fun. it felt good to have some fun and mess round coz Ive been really tense recently. We played Scratched(sumink like that) and Clack which i was rubbish at and they we had somethink to eat. WE decided Pattie and cat food smells the same! Then we went back in the living room watched some tv and wen her dad came in we watch FINAL FANTASY VII (Yes holly VII is 7 not 6 :D lol) I love that film!!!! My Mum picked me up and i was well gutted i was enjoying myself so much! Yer i would have had to go soon anyway but : I had soo much fun! :)

Thats Me descibed kinda

^^^^^^^ Cute pic of misty missin Ash!
I hate Welsh I hate my Welsh teacher and i hate most the people in my welsh class! what more can i say! The teacher nearly gave me blue form (that for naughty kids) just coz i only wrote 3 words on my welsh test. Hello Its hard maby i dont understand the launguage!!! But oh no he wont belive me! And then he gones on to tell me i shud have asked him for help erm what exactly am i ment to ask "Sir can u do my test for me?" yer and then id get shouted at AGAIN!!!! And ive got a detention 4 Art. Not my fault i cnt think of a building that means alot to me! God teachers expect us to be brainier then them hello we are only children!!!! Tweenagers!!!! Teenagers!!!!!! whateva u wana call us : : :

I need to get a life really i do! right now im hoplessly pining over my bestfriends brother a film character oh and a cartoon!!!! Tho i must admit Ash of pokemon wud probs be cute in real life and Kakashi from Naruto!!! :) :) :)

Is sad and lonely just seen my best friend with my worst enemy i think she slept over at theres. :( see she always slags D off wen she with me so whats to say she wont slag me off to D. I dunno i was all happy earlier when i came home from hols and there she and D were at the bottam of my street. then D comes up to my house and when i go out to the car she runs back! Who can i trust these days...

Cant find any good blog skins >:( And is Going to play assassins creed :)

Is sad and thinkin bout not betherin wiv writing my blog coz it aint like anyone reads it!!!!!!!

Iv got a new computer Yay But i still miss my old one :(

Kasia S

Yup i decided coz ive got nothing better to write about i'll tell anyone who actually bothers to read this bout my self!
My name is Kasia! Im 12 tho im very mature for my age (iv been thru alot) And my birthdays 22 January. I live in wales! I dont like being around lots of people and love reading and music! I havn't got that special person im my life yet! My passion is netball and has been for years. I play for Holywell and cant stand people who aint committed and think netballs all a joke. My 2 dogs keep me sain. I want to learn how to play the guitar and play drums. I used to play flute but i got bored coz u cant exactly play rock and punk on a flute! I live wiv my mum and her boyfriend! And my 2 dogs Jack and Jenny both jack russel crosses! I plan too finish high skwl and go to uni then take a year out touring round the world (IM AMBITIOUS) The settledown in a big house in the contry wiv a job (Oh please NOT a 9 till 5 one) With THE ONE and a few horses A a big dog that looks wolfish but i dont want to be too far way from civiliisation!
Have i mentioned i have this BIG thing bout WOLVES and the MOON! I love wolves and people say im very wolfish! x I think wolves are really graceful and beautiful and magnificant. People always picture them as the Big Bad Wolf but i disagree what is bad about wolves they animals who are family orientated they have to hunt to live. There just BEAUTIFUL!!!! I couldnt praise them enought! I know im weird but i dont care! I'm like a lone wolf i supose! Banished from the pack and seems happy enought alone but Growin more crazy everyday im alone! bacause I am now truely alone...

I dont usually cry when people die i just never have done but today i found my self in tears! A few years ago this man called Trevor died, RIP. And i didnt cry but today i found myself in tears searchin blindly for his grave. Why? i dont kno it just hit me will all the bad things in my life at the moment i was thinkin about a time when i was happyest and Trevor was important to me when i was little. Me and him used to walk my nans dog Max all the time. Max and Trevor were asclose as dog and man cud be and when Max died at a grand old age Trevor died not long after!!!! xx x x x x

Nan

I love my nan shes always there 4 me. As a matter of fact im at her's now! I'm on my Grandads computer! Iv been crashin model airaplanes (cnt spell it tho) on a flight simulator! Hehe My mums at work and theres nothin to do at home coz my mums boyfriend is watchin old tv. And now my bloody grandad has reduced me to tears im goin home now!

I love books and music

Have i mentioned i neva stop reading or listenin to music!
Coz im now offically a outcast in skwl i spend all of lunch and break in the library and lunch so i usually end up runnin to lunch to try and make it b4 the bell!
What do people have against reading its good when u want to get away from things or 4 me when i want to calm down! If uve got the imagination you can become that person and have some wicked advensers Almost better then any film!!! And music what would we do wivout music!!! Love Music almost as much as reading!
xxxx

So many bad things!

Why do this always go amazingly do in my life or drasticly bad! Theres neva any middle round wiv me! Things are soo bad at the moment there so many things either upsettin me or makin me angry right now its not fair!!!! here are just a few, N wont answer my calls or texts i dont know what iv done! M is tellin everyone he dumped me, N is ignoring, D wont leave me lone, H has gone funny on me and i dont think she wonts to b my friend as much anymore, My AMAZING BESTIE N IS IGNORING ME!!!! M is being gay, S hates me coz M hates me and M hates me coz S hates me. I'm neva goin to get my S back :'(. N is still not answerin my texts and disconecting my calls HELP, the bois in welsh wont leave me alone (I HATE WELSH FULL STOP), Me and S are still not tlkin and she and M are still goin out. M told me him and S offically both hate me and guess what I think N hates me too :'( . And My Doc sed all this stress aint good 4 me soo i hate to see a counceler!!!! So now everyone thinks im a head case, and that makes me stress even more Helo how supid are these people!!!! Im not crazy its there meaness thats makin me fell constantly on a downer!!!! Plus my mum told me i CAN'T go to the gym and go horse riding HELP AGAIN!!!!


P.S has just remembered someting that has been creepin me out latly! M who is my ex-boii Keeps lookin at me like wenever i look up hes watchin me Its creepy and hes just SAD and needs to get a life (thats the stress tlkin and the fact all the bad things have happened coz of him!!!!)
And no everyone who reads this probibly thinks in crazy no im not crazy just lonely! x x x

new start????

So i am goin to try and make a new start on life. Eat a athleats diet and do lots more sports and at some point im supost to find the love of my life and have some really good friends i trust?? unlikly but hey i can dream. Sure i have N but a while ago N totally spent ages lying to me soo ive lost all trust of her and if it was anyone else i wud tell them to stuff emselves but i luvs N too much she rules and shes my closest (and only willing) Bestie right now. Sure H is round during skwl but shes seen what im really like and i dont think she likes me bein round that much and anyway i dont like annoyin her coz shes allready got big groups of friends and i kno ill always feel like a outsider round em! Thats what i love bout N tho she takes me 4 what i am and dont expect me to change sure were unlikely friends and were both opisites in lots of things and i spend most my time worring or bein stressed or arguein wiv N but wen we do c eachover out of Netball we have fun. Wudn't trade her 4 the world. S still hates me and i miss her like hell, but i supose only time can change thinngs and im used to bein a outsider i allways have been! Last lesson of skwl yesterday was Welsh and i spent most of the lesson tryin to decide weather i wanted to hit something or cry (wen i feel upset it makes me feel weak so i turn it into anger) becoz the boys who i sit near get a kick off tryin to upset me etc and im fed up of it. No my fault im not one of em hoes wo spends all there time starving themselves and doin there hair and makeup couldnt think of anything worse to do!

Im sooo ill

Sooo i havnt ritten much lately but theres not much to right really, not much has happened to me lately unless u count the usual crappy stuff. I think me and H have gone funny i think shes realised y most people dont like me in skwl. I like soo ill today my throat kills and my ear i like realli painful and i keep struggleing to get breath Grrrrr! I dont like it!
Yer so i txted N earlier and asked her to play out tomoz and she was like Cba and it like really hurt coz im goin thru a hard time and need her to b there behind me supporting me not tellin me she cba and i havnt seen her in ages and i kno shes got a cold but iv got inflamed toncils so i can bearly eat or swollow and either a ear infection or i could have poss busted the ear drum (well it hurts bad enought) and the pain did start ofter that reinactent of a battle wiv VERY loud guns goin off! But its made me feel depressed that not eneven my bestie gal who i love the most in the world and would do anything 4 cba goin out to c me! she wud bearly have to move. usually it wouldnt bother me but shes the only person ive got left :'(!
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Kazzie

H is a life Saver COOLIST person i kno!!! no much goin on in my life at the mo! But OMG i was Tlkin to ML and he sed how M was sayin he dump me haha i couldnt stop laughtin. I was like i'm glad i dumped him i wouldnt wanna go out wiv somone who cant even take gettin dumped wiv good grace and i need some one who could handle me and he proved that he couldnt and that kinda got borein Anyone herd of this word it beings wiv a e its called Excitment (i spelt it wrong mind u) hehe No one has any guts anymore too scared of gettin told of everyone is! Its Disgraceful!!! Haha I AM REALLY BORED just proof read a really good story by H and its reminded me bout the story iv decided to wright 4 the 100th time but never finished! AND i have FRENCH HOMEWORK to do for TOMMORW only got it today Arrrrrr Daft teacher who thinks we have nothin better to do lol!
H u rule thanking u 4 puttin up wiv me at my worst no alot of ppl wud do that I admire u. xxxx
Very Ironic callin the caracter in your book Sam mind u haha tho i think u writ it b4 it happened it just couldnt help but think it ironic. Ly H ur the best perosn i kno
*heads table* I is goin to shut up now haha b4 i annoy anyone else Haha
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Kazzie

Dont kno what to say

I really dont know what to say right now skwl has been stressfull. Well it would be seeing all my old "gang" who i used to hang round go all off wivout me. I thought atleast someone who stick by me but i was wrong and they have blocked me out :'( and its Gut renching. I miss all the laughs and its all because me and sam broke friends :'( which upset me full stop. I thought we were all a group of friends but its obv i thought wrong. But i am not goin to get down coz off it. Break times and lunch is fine coz H is just bein my life saver and letting me hang round wiv em but her mates arnt so welcoming. Tho its ok there not compleatly mean but its still not nice. The problem is H is really nice so i dont kno wether shes bein all nice because she feels sorry for me or coz were mates? But H dont kno how much her bein nice means to me i dont know what i would do wivout her coz everyone else including everyone in my form has turned there backs on me!!! And Natalie oh Natalie what can i do about natalie cant live wiv her cant live wivout her haha I love her like my sis but at times i cant stand her like she messes round wiv my head i dont think she means it but still ill ask her to sleep over a week b4 the day and thru that whole week she says wen i ask her ill tell u later i dont kno yet and then the day b4 i call and text her all day wiv no reply only to have her text the morn of the day to say she can come and then 10mins later to have her text sayin she cant I CANT KEEP UP WIV MY LIFE NO MORE everythings goin on at once!!! By the end of the day i was nearly in tears, actually i was nearly in tears at the end of lunch but by the end of the day i couldnt wait to get out the skwl and i usually aint the run away type i go at things feet first usually breaking a lot of things on the way but i couldnt ber it anymore and i am soo glad its the week end i was just bout to go crazy!!!
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Kazzie

SKWL

God i hate skwl really hate it!!! Its not the same any more naw wivout S, I MISS HER SO MUCH! SO SO MUCH :'( Tho i'm not goin to let it get to me! I am goin to survive thru all this and lets face it H has been so nice and supporting even tho it ment goin against RD who didnt like her bein my friend. And she dont kno how much her bein a good friend means because ive been feelin reallii crappy recently and have been just so out of it and loney and sad! And shes put up will all my faults recently H has and i kno its not easy when im like that. I STILL MISs S! But OMG the bus was soo funny HAHA, C nicked Lukes tie and gave it to A and then wen L had to get off the bus A gave it back to C, and he told L to get of the bus and she would pass it thru the window but as the bus drove of she neva let it go and OMG the look on L's face was just so funny Hehe

:(

Ok so i went to skwl today and S was ignoring me! I found out that aparently i've sed something to offend her somepoint along the line! I DONT GET IT!!!! We were good mates yesterday after skwl and then i didnt talk to her untill the next morning at skwl!!! Then i found out at lunch why i was being ignored but only coz i litrally followed L till she would tell me. Cnt belive C would turn on me like that either we were all matey earlier today. SO.. today i went to Miss L after lunch in tears and she sent me to Lesson and then at the end of drama i was given a load more of Crap of someone cnt remember who tho (i reeally wanna remember its annoyin me now!!!) went and cried in the toliots! and called my mum! who was in work so was no use at all so in the end i went to form tutor Mr A and he let me spent the lesson (Welsh, so i wasnt missin much) in his room coz i was cryin so bad took me ages to calm down again! (I DONT LIKE CRYING!!!!) I also text my bestie N and coz shes so good she made some time to hang round wiv me after skwl!!! even tho she knows i go hyper after im upset badly! So i had to go home get changed the grab my game that was over due in the game shop and come back to town but... as i got the car i slamed the door but i forgot to move my thumb and slamed it straight onto my thumd it was soo painful i SCREAMED my head off! The i had to go into the library still sobbing and find a autobiography (Richard Hammonds) Then i had to sprint to the game exchange and there was a newish ladie there was made a joke that might have been funny apart then the pain and breathlessness!!!
Apart frm that some very weird and kinda funnyish things happened today! First was the poor year 7 (it was his birthday) on our bus has a older bro in yr 10 and he got everyone (mostly year 10's) to sing happy birthday poor lad went red!! And during the part of lunch when everything was good yr 10 scared me L was NICE!!!! I Fought he hated my Guts haha shows everyone changes! And then after skwl at N's i was havin tea and we were at the table (Wow really nice table) Me, N and her older bro in yr 10 (..... ) and N and C were tellin these tales bout funny stuff in skwl! I couldnt stop laughtin (Post-upset hyperness) I dunno why hehe Wow N always puts the world straight 4 me SHE RULES!!!!! ILU bbes!!! Lyk best friend in the worldio!!!
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Kazzie

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God i am so tierd and achey!!!! My leg is killing me!!! Skwl was boring like mad! I dont get why me and S cant go back to they way we were and it dont help she dont like my other mate L so i cant really hang round wiv L. And why are all the boys i know so confuseing but no in a emontional way but in a really annoyin hes sooo senstive way!!!!! Coz like we used to go out and i ended it coz i didnt fancy him and all i'd wanted was to be mates. But no since we split up i aint seen him apart from in skwl. Thats somthing else i dont get S and M are like all matey and friendly in skwl but like on msn S is allways ready to point out wer not bezzies anymore, but like sometimes in skwl shes really nice... but other times shes sooo mean it makes me want to cry, i dont get it at all. Why are they all nice inside skwl and act like everythings fine but not when were out off skwl. But im also all hurty today wiv my leg! Had P.E first lesson today what idiot made that one up, its better last so u can just go straight home and get changed not walk round all sweaty all day!!!! And to boot no one in my year out of the girls will use the showers (there idiots) seriosuly there al in cubiculs i dont get the fuss! Had netball after skwl to (the leg was still hurtin) and im not in a vry good mood coz me and N have been bezzies 4 ages but then we went to diff high skwls and she has her "Gang" there and sometimes i just feel like im being replaced and its makin me quite sad coz ive neva had good friends and i supose thats caused me to look at N as a friend but also almost like a sister too (i am a only child). And it makes me misreble to feel like im being replaced coz i asked wether she wanted a sleepover this fri but she was all like im goin to J's instead and i kno it makes me feel realii selfish but i cant help it coz shes like one of the most important people in the world to me! IS also hoping that her Uncle invites me to see his new house!!!! Hes moved in with his girlfriend. But is hoping even more that Uncle P will take me bowlin or to lazerquest sometime soon coz its been ages since i last went! oooo Hopes Uncle P gets married one day so i can (hopefully) be bridesmaid i would love to get a really nice dress! *heads table* GOD what is it wiv me today, Me This, ME that really im not usually this bad!!!!!
OOO just remembered last year in skwl my class sent of these emails to these skwl kids in france suposidily in french we had lernt (most of us used online translators) and S had got a reply of her email buddie, but 4 somereason im the only person who aint got a reply!!!
ANd its not my fault there are lots of cute boiis in Chester and non in my skwl soo dont blame me 4 sayin i saw a cute one!!!!
LOU I MISS U!!!!!!!! Plz 4give me!!!!
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Kazzie

P.S just realised that if i keep the writin at black you cant see it on the blog HeHe

So here i am

Ok so here i am, with a blog at last. I was thinking the other day when would it be best to start a new blog and then it hit me! NOW! While everything is all simple and normal after all the hell that happened over the summer! New start now so why not add a blog into the new start ive wanted to start one in ages! i am really confident person really rambling on now coz i dont kno what to put...!


I had a really fun day today it was my mums b-day yesterday so my nana took all the girls (me mum nan and my uncles girlfriend) to Chefs Wok best Chinese place ever! all stuffed ourselves till we could eat no more tho i am now lookin thin and fabulous rather fat.
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Kazzie